Unwanted By Others, But Loved By Me
I am unwanted… but that’s just…me. It’s always been this way. I don’t know what it is. At this point I kind of just roll with it. I’m used to it. I pretty much expect to be unwanted no matter where I go. I personally feel that it would be a cold day in hell before anyone is attracted to who I am.
Who Am I ?
I’m a plain bagel, no cream cheese wanted, no cream cheese needed. I’m awkward and strange, but only sometimes. I can end a conversation without even trying. I love to organize events but would prefer to watch others have fun versus interact. I know the moment that I do, it can change the mood. I sometimes day dream of being different. I dream of having an attractive personality. To be someone that people are drawn to, but that’s not the reality. The reality is… I am unwanted.
I am extremely logical. I’m also a very literal person. I spend my time defending tv show characters like Sheldon from “The Big Bang Theory”, And Brennan from “Bones”. Aside from their genius level IQs, and atheists views, I identify with their personalities. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to have such a high IQ. That’s the trade off right? When you have a unattractive personality there should be a trade off. Redeeming qualities.
What are my redeeming qualities?
* Loyalty. I’m loyal to few, but I’m loyal to a fault.
* Integrity. With the way I operate, my integrity should never be in question.
* Pride Check. Sometimes we all have to check our pride when we’re wrong. I will admit, and apologize when I’m wrong.
* Self-Analyzation. This can sometimes be tied into the “Pride Check”. I take the time to analyze my own words, and actions. I take time to ask myself questions, to make sure I don’t miss any subconscious behavior.
These redeeming qualities may not mean much to some, but they’re everything to me. It’s a perk of being unwanted. I had to learn to love myself early. I found ways to accept, want, and love myself. So when I say I’m okay with being unwanted, I mean I’m ok with being rejected by others. Well…I’m ok with the rejection most of the time. I’m human, so sometimes it does gets to me. Sometimes it’s just nice to be wanted, and accepted by someone who isn’t me.
*I find it hilarious that this piece was inspired by the song “Wanted” By Hunter Hayes *
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-That LoOpy Chick-